Wants Vs Need!!!!

I’d like to set the record straight.

I WANT to win this argument discussion.  I NEED to see you’ll stick to your guns.

I WANT you to pretend you didn’t see me roll my eyes.  I NEED you to not put up with it.

I WANT you to not mention that I forgot my cell phone again.  I NEED to know it upsets you because you care so deeply for my safety.

I WANT to walk away and not listen when you are reminding me (again) I have certain responsibilities around here.  I NEED you to keep me from walking away.  I NEED you to not allow the distance I sometimes try to create.

I WANT to clam up when you say it is time to talk about touchy subjects.  I NEED you to demand full disclosure.

I WANT (sometimes) to get louder and louder and make sure I am heard.  I NEED you to quiet me and not let this stupid thing escalate.

I WANT to steer this relationship and control the pace at which it moves (faster, please, faster!)  I NEED to know you have the wheel.

I WANT to serve you when it is convenient.  I NEED to know you will make it happen if it is your will.

I WANT to have sex when it is convenient.  I NEED to know you feel my body is yours for the taking.

I WANT you to go easier on me.  I NEED you to be more strict.

I WANT to throw out all the unwritten rules.  I NEED so badly for you to be stern when you enforce them.

I WANT you to back down when you’ve made tears well up.  I NEED you to never never never back down.

I WANT to hide any tears from you.  I NEED you to be strong enough to face those tears and push on through.  I NEED for you to be the only man in my life that knows you can cause the tears AND wipe them away.

I WANT to bat my eyelashes or unzip your pants and have you forget that nothing got checked off the list today.  I NEED you to hold me accountable. (then take off your pants)

I WANT to think I’m a big-shot around here.  I NEED to know who is boss.

There. See how easy I am to live with. **wink**

For Any Who Have Worried About Me....

I know that i have been dealing with a lot. My emotions have been a giant roller coaster. I can't even start to tell you how much I appreciate that you have not ran away screaming  and instead have been there for me supporting me in ways that can't even begin to be covered by the words "love". "friendship" or even "sisterhood". I love everyone even through my downs.  The fact is I know I am negative about myself  as I deal with my illness and my pain, I forget there are people around who support me and don't want or need  me dragging them down too. If you can accept my apology and all my hugs for still standing by me.. then HUG!

Here is a Thought I had randomly today....

I am not so bad to look at . I might be small figure and a carrot top , but so what. I am sure there are other out there who might like what I look like, so I must be doing OK.. Even some who tell me kindly that they think I am okay to look at that often makes me happy.

Collars and Collaring...

I think that collars are a totally amazing way to symbolize the uniting of two people. I think that they make an online experience such as SL or IRC a beautiful way to profess mutual need and desire to be together.  A wonderful way to explore, educate and bond together...

All i ask is that if you choose to become collared , please remember it is a long term choice and not easily removed. A heart should never be fickle. All Relationships require tons of work.

So I am a completely enraptured with Twilight!

                                 Fluffy Teenage Love!

Yes I said it. I love Twilight. The Movies AND the books. I think Edward might be a little over protective but what girl doesn't want her knight in shining armor and if he can offer up immortality and love forever then you are looking at the best type of happily every after....

Maybe I am a romantic at heart.

or Maybe I just like fluffy reading with lots of young love.

or Maybe it is just vampires, werewolves and all the things that go bump in the night.

No Drama?...

If there's any one phrase that's way overused in  profiles it's 'No Drama Please' .

Although the word drama is mainly used for literature and theater to portray life stories involving conflict and emotion, dictionary entries also list drama as: a state, situation, or series of events involving intense conflict of forces.

We ALL have had experiences of drama in one form or another in our lives: the loss/death of someone close, financial woes and loss of possessions, hell, divorce; for example.

Who of us is so much more perfect that we have no dramatic tales, and then have the audacity to request that our potential other be without it as well?

Being involved in some drama is good character training, refines us, makes us strong and extremely appreciative of the drama-less times.So before using that way overused phrase in your profile: show me a person who has never been involved in life drama and I'll show you a person who will tuck tail, whimper and run at the first sign of trouble.

Pandas Rock!..

So If you know me then you know that I am a HUGE fan of pandas. The day that World of Warcraft came out with the Pandaran, I switched all my played character to the race. Nothing is cuter that the gorgeous black and white face. The cutest marks over the eyes. I am not saying I don't love ferrets and raccoons because I so do. I am just saying that I adore pandas! They just look so plushie and squishy and cuddly! ADORABLE!

 They look so playful!!!


Don't you just want to pick one up and cuddle him close? Well, I think we should all have a panda a day, it will keep the blues away!