Embracing Your Warts (Thank you Aqua)

  So I receive this note card and it's absolutely brilliant . It talks about how we each have our differences and we need to embrace those  differences. Each of out differences are a purple wart. Some people will have more warts than another but they are what makes us wonderful and thus we should embrace our purple warts.

I would like to first say that my warts will be Pink. This is the color that I associate myself with the best and although many pick on me for this I will just have to think of that are just another Pink Wart.

Life is filled with differences. I am sure I am not the only one who feels like it doesn't matter where she goes she just can't fit in. I think there are so many people who like to stare at my Pink Warts. I am sure that people look at me as see each little Pink Wart and that is all that they see. I am also sure that I think I see my Pink Warts much more than they do. I don't believe , intelligent as I am, that they truly are staring at my Wart, but rather that I feel my Pink Warts all over myself and I am so focused on them that I forget to focus outward. I just have to remember every once in a while to reassess if worrying about m own Warts are just hurting my relationships with others who I know actually love me!

I am feeling a little like glass!

I am feeling a see through recently. I don't like the idea that people are looking through me recently. I want to be a little less translucent. I am not going to break at the first touch. I promise. I do hope that it isn't that because I am a bit emotional that people feel they aren't allowed to talk to me. I don't wonder if most of the time I exude the feeling that talking to me is impossible. I love people and my friends but often I feel that when I am hurting they can't see me. Once again I am worried that I am that glass lady again.

When I am not invisible I am the fragile china doll. I am almost sure this is my fault as well. I am sure that my littles lifestyle mixed with my emotional neediness as well as my tendency to cling. I know this puts men off because I don't want anything to do with sex. I want to be loved and adored and have my emotional supporter who will know how to reason with me well so that I don't force myself to drown.

I can see that this is a difficult situation for me and someone else. Often I don't know what I can expect from others when even I don't understand . Shakes head.. well I just hope in the end it turns out better than how it might be right now.