I am feeling a see through recently. I don't like the idea that people are looking through me recently. I want to be a little less translucent. I am not going to break at the first touch. I promise. I do hope that it isn't that because I am a bit emotional that people feel they aren't allowed to talk to me. I don't wonder if most of the time I exude the feeling that talking to me is impossible. I love people and my friends but often I feel that when I am hurting they can't see me. Once again I am worried that I am that glass lady again.
When I am not invisible I am the fragile china doll. I am almost sure this is my fault as well. I am sure that my littles lifestyle mixed with my emotional neediness as well as my tendency to cling. I know this puts men off because I don't want anything to do with sex. I want to be loved and adored and have my emotional supporter who will know how to reason with me well so that I don't force myself to drown.
I can see that this is a difficult situation for me and someone else. Often I don't know what I can expect from others when even I don't understand . Shakes head.. well I just hope in the end it turns out better than how it might be right now.
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